Friday, December 26, 2008
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
stretching
over this past week God has brought me from the highs to the lowest of lows and back again. what a roller coaster ride it has been ( to be honest with you i hate roller coasters.....lol). I never thought that i still had so much anger, hurt, pain, fear, and guilt inside ; but guess what i do. isn't it funny how satan fools us. he makes us think we are ok and we just float through life existing on nothing . How painfully sweet it is for God to say ...nope, i see that let me remove it for you.
it reminds of when my zach gets a splinter. he knows it will feel better to remove it but he pretends it doesn't hurt just to be left alone. why is it that we want God to leave us alone sometimes and others we want all he has for us. in the good times we want all of him and nothing less, but in the tough times we only want the love not anything that requires honesty out of us? are we afraid? afraid of healing? sounds odd doesn't it?
i think that sometimes we are afraid of healing.... sometimes healing requires pain and we don't like pain. i know i don't like pain. i have had people tell me God knows who the strong ones are. and i suppose that i give that appearance to people. but all the while inside i am such a scared little girl who just wants love and acceptance. all mt life it has been easier to be rough and angry to keep people away but God in his infinite wisdom is bringing people into my life that he obviously wants there for a reason. some i can see and feel and be very intimate with others only through words and the bridge of God between us. i am blessed to be given the chance to grow and heal with these people who care about me and what more could i ask for. you know who you are ( i hope) and I love you so much for it. i thank God for you all the time.
we are singing one of my favorites hymns this week at church and it speaks so much of what i have said to my Savior every day for this past week. here is the scripture that goes along with it. i hope it blesses you today.
"Through the Lord's mercies we are not consumed, because his compassions fail not. They are new every morning; Great is Your faithfulness. 'The Lord is my portion', says my soul, Therefore i hope in him!" Lamentations 3:22-24
Thank you Lord that Your mercy never changes and we can always hope in it. Thank You that You are faithful in every way. amen
it reminds of when my zach gets a splinter. he knows it will feel better to remove it but he pretends it doesn't hurt just to be left alone. why is it that we want God to leave us alone sometimes and others we want all he has for us. in the good times we want all of him and nothing less, but in the tough times we only want the love not anything that requires honesty out of us? are we afraid? afraid of healing? sounds odd doesn't it?
i think that sometimes we are afraid of healing.... sometimes healing requires pain and we don't like pain. i know i don't like pain. i have had people tell me God knows who the strong ones are. and i suppose that i give that appearance to people. but all the while inside i am such a scared little girl who just wants love and acceptance. all mt life it has been easier to be rough and angry to keep people away but God in his infinite wisdom is bringing people into my life that he obviously wants there for a reason. some i can see and feel and be very intimate with others only through words and the bridge of God between us. i am blessed to be given the chance to grow and heal with these people who care about me and what more could i ask for. you know who you are ( i hope) and I love you so much for it. i thank God for you all the time.
we are singing one of my favorites hymns this week at church and it speaks so much of what i have said to my Savior every day for this past week. here is the scripture that goes along with it. i hope it blesses you today.
"Through the Lord's mercies we are not consumed, because his compassions fail not. They are new every morning; Great is Your faithfulness. 'The Lord is my portion', says my soul, Therefore i hope in him!" Lamentations 3:22-24
Thank you Lord that Your mercy never changes and we can always hope in it. Thank You that You are faithful in every way. amen
Saturday, October 11, 2008
sorry its been so long for a post. i have had amigraine for 3 days..... so yucky!!!
a few weeks ago we had to put in a new electric dog fence. needless to say it was no fun. the ground was hard as a rock because of no rain and so dusty. besides the dust killing my allergies it hurt to crawl around for so long. as i was crawling around i was complaining about how spoiled my dogs are and the things i go through to keep them safe.
i began to wonder what the world would be like if we cared about people as much as we do our dogs. (all this time mind you i am telling my husband this and he thinks i have lost my mind.)i mean most of the time our pets eat better than we do and we go to huge lengths to keep them safe. i know God gave us creaturesto enjoy but what does he think about us loving them more than people
i beagn to wonder even more about the changes i coule make and how i could impact the world if i cared about people even half as much as i care about my dogs. don't get me wrong i am not selfish and i donate my money and time for many different things but what do i do to further the kingdom? do i do as much as i am called to do or do i fail miserably at the call my Lord has given me?
in a couple of weeks at our church we will be having a free clothing day and food drive for our county food bank. it is my desire to not only serve myself but to pass along to the kids i love , adore and teach the call that God has put on their lives. i am hoping by starting them young that they will grasp the importance of serving instead of being served.
Then Jesus cam to them and said, "All authority has been given to me .Therefore go and make disciples of all nations baptizing them in the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit and teaching themto obeyeverything i have commanded you.And surely i am with you to the end of the age." Matthew 28:18-20
a few weeks ago we had to put in a new electric dog fence. needless to say it was no fun. the ground was hard as a rock because of no rain and so dusty. besides the dust killing my allergies it hurt to crawl around for so long. as i was crawling around i was complaining about how spoiled my dogs are and the things i go through to keep them safe.
i began to wonder what the world would be like if we cared about people as much as we do our dogs. (all this time mind you i am telling my husband this and he thinks i have lost my mind.)i mean most of the time our pets eat better than we do and we go to huge lengths to keep them safe. i know God gave us creaturesto enjoy but what does he think about us loving them more than people
i beagn to wonder even more about the changes i coule make and how i could impact the world if i cared about people even half as much as i care about my dogs. don't get me wrong i am not selfish and i donate my money and time for many different things but what do i do to further the kingdom? do i do as much as i am called to do or do i fail miserably at the call my Lord has given me?
in a couple of weeks at our church we will be having a free clothing day and food drive for our county food bank. it is my desire to not only serve myself but to pass along to the kids i love , adore and teach the call that God has put on their lives. i am hoping by starting them young that they will grasp the importance of serving instead of being served.
Then Jesus cam to them and said, "All authority has been given to me .Therefore go and make disciples of all nations baptizing them in the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit and teaching themto obeyeverything i have commanded you.And surely i am with you to the end of the age." Matthew 28:18-20
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
Giving the Holy Spirit freedom
Over the past 2 weeks i have come to realize that we do not give the Spirit freedom to move in our lives.We may think we do but when we rush and do not rest in him we miss what he has for us.God wants for us to want him in our lives (we know he wants to be in ours)and will not push his way in.
Earlier tonight as i was coming home from church i got to thinking about all the freedoms we have because God gives us the choice to make our own decisions. But do we give him the freedom to speak to us about the decisions he wants us to make. I don't think we do.
as a challenge to us for the next 2 days every time we come to a choice stop and think is this the choice that lines up with what my Lord has for me? Does this choice coincide with the word? I think we may be surprised to realize that a lot of our decisions are selfish and self-serving. keep in touch and let me know what you learn from God in the next 2 days about freedom and choice.
Live as free people, but do not use your freedom as a cover-up for evil; live as God's slaves. 1 Peter 2:16
Earlier tonight as i was coming home from church i got to thinking about all the freedoms we have because God gives us the choice to make our own decisions. But do we give him the freedom to speak to us about the decisions he wants us to make. I don't think we do.
as a challenge to us for the next 2 days every time we come to a choice stop and think is this the choice that lines up with what my Lord has for me? Does this choice coincide with the word? I think we may be surprised to realize that a lot of our decisions are selfish and self-serving. keep in touch and let me know what you learn from God in the next 2 days about freedom and choice.
Live as free people, but do not use your freedom as a cover-up for evil; live as God's slaves. 1 Peter 2:16
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